I feel the need to scream and cry and beat stuff and maybe even tear myself up. Only I can't, cause my body won't let me. And for most of the time, that's a-okay. But I think everything that I've kept in over the years, everything that I haven't been able to talk about, all the stress and all the secrets... I think it's time it all comes out.
But it can't.
My cheekbones feel like they're burning.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Finals - OVER!
They're done! And I didn't fail my grammar class! 8D I got a C in it! I'm so happy. I thought for sure that was an F class.
I've started my new position at work as lead student. I'm basically in charge of the building while everyone else goes away, in between shifts of the supervisors. It's really cool but really nervewracking, at least right now. What if something bad happens?! ∬゜Д゜∬ But it feels nice to have that kind of responsibility. :)
I have my guitar now! *___* So awesome. I don't have good pictures at the moment but I'll try to get some soon. Here's a quick phone-shot of it when I was just getting it out of the box:
But, guitar-related, I was looking through a tab of Lareine's "Métamorphose" and this is the layout for each part:
English Horn for the vocal part? |D Of all instruments, why that one? That cracks me up.
Away~
I've started my new position at work as lead student. I'm basically in charge of the building while everyone else goes away, in between shifts of the supervisors. It's really cool but really nervewracking, at least right now. What if something bad happens?! ∬゜Д゜∬ But it feels nice to have that kind of responsibility. :)
I have my guitar now! *___* So awesome. I don't have good pictures at the moment but I'll try to get some soon. Here's a quick phone-shot of it when I was just getting it out of the box:
But, guitar-related, I was looking through a tab of Lareine's "Métamorphose" and this is the layout for each part:
English Horn for the vocal part? |D Of all instruments, why that one? That cracks me up.
Away~
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Failed.
My grammar final.
With 52%.
Sadly, this is the best score I've gotten on an exam in this class.
Maybe the teacher will see that I've improved over time and curve the grade so I end up with a D?
-fails-
Life hates me, and I hate life. -slinks back into room-
With 52%.
Sadly, this is the best score I've gotten on an exam in this class.
Maybe the teacher will see that I've improved over time and curve the grade so I end up with a D?
-fails-
Life hates me, and I hate life. -slinks back into room-
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Finals, Winter '10
I seriously think I'm about to lose my mind.
I don't understand this grammar. At all. The practice exam asks me to "choose the option that describes why the superior passage is superior", but when I go through and look at the answers, half of them describe why the inferior passage is inferior. It sounds like it should make sense, but it doesn't. Not to me, anyway.
The test is tomorrow. I'm resigning myself to the fact I'm going to fail it and have to take the goddamn class all over again.
And this is how I feel about it:
I don't understand this grammar. At all. The practice exam asks me to "choose the option that describes why the superior passage is superior", but when I go through and look at the answers, half of them describe why the inferior passage is inferior. It sounds like it should make sense, but it doesn't. Not to me, anyway.
The test is tomorrow. I'm resigning myself to the fact I'm going to fail it and have to take the goddamn class all over again.
And this is how I feel about it:
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Everlasting Dream
Choose the setting of "Shuffle".
The answer to the question is the name of the current song.
Skip to the next song when on the next question.
1. What do you want to be when you grow up?:
"Illuminati" by Malice Mizer
[YESH 8D!]
2. What kind of dreams do you have?:
"Tenjou he no Kakehashi wo" by Matenrou Opera
[Dreams about the bridge to heaven, apparently. :Db]
3. What do you think of Christmas?:
"Exclude" by Moi dix Mois
[D8 Well I suppose as the oldest I am somewhat excluded...]
4. What are your current thoughts?:
"Birdcage -live-" by GACKT
[I'M CAGED D8.]
5. What would you say to the person you liked?:
"In A Little While" by U2
[XD!]
6. What do people think of you?:
"The Revenant Choir" by Versailles
[I came back from the dead and I sing a lot.]
7. What is you favorite possession?:
"Innocence" by alice nine.
[Interesting...]
8. What do you do in the evenings?:
"To Go Beyond, Pt. 2" by Enya
[I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING ILLEGAL I SWEAR 8Db.]
9. How do you say goodbye to your friends?:
"Blue Planet" by alice nine.
["Go! Return the planet to its beauty! Be green!.... erm, blue! 8D!"]
10. How do you say goodbye to the person you like?:
"Soaring Awakening" by Art Cube
[I woke up and realized I didn't like you anymore.]
11. What would you use to kill someone?:
"Hishuu no Hanazono "Ketsubetsu no Bara" ~L'adieu Avec Le Passe~" by Lareine
[KAMIJO'S HIDEOUSLY LONG TITLES AND LAREINENESS. I WOULD NOT FAIL.]
12. What would you like you boyfriend / girlfriend to be?:
"Shadows Temple" by Moi dix Mois
[A ruined cathedral, apparently. ... Actually, I can see myself doing that. O_o'']
13. What do you think of life?:
"Eternal Love" by Lareine
[..........LIES.]
14. What do you do for your friends on their birthday?:
"Whatya Want From Me" by Adam Lambert
[YOU EXPECTED A PRESENT? YOU EXPECT ME TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU? PAH!]
15. Who is your best friend?:
"Kimi Ja Nakya Dame Nanda!" by Kimeru
[It must be Kimeru, since apparently he can't live without me. O_o'')
16. What does it smell like?:
"SPEED OF RISE" by Lareine
[I DON'T KNOW BUT IT MUST BE COOL]
17. What do you often shout to people?:
"Silly God Disco" by the GazettE
[I am the Silly God, so whatever issues from my mouth is therefore the Disco.]
18. What is you current mood?:
"Returner ~Yami no Shuuen~" by GACKT
[Emo. ;A;]
19. What did you do last night?:
"Queen of Decadence" by Schwarz Stein
[I have nothing to say for this. ;D]
20. Which possession do you use most often?:
"Saint Croix" by Juka
[Indeed it is! -highfives Juka!-]
21. What did you do last time you got drunk?:
"apres midi ~Aru Paris no Gogo de~" by Malice Mizer
[I went to Paris for the afternoon.]
22. What is the meaning of a funeral?:
"Regret" by Malice Mizer
[Thinking of all the things you should have done and said while they were alive. :(]
23. What are you scared of?:
"UNEXPECTED" by HYDE
[OMG SO TRUE D8]
24. What hurts you the most?:
"Blue Romance" by Lareine
[If it was Red Romance, though, it would be completely different...]
25. What do you want to do when you see a school teacher?:
"Oz to Majo" by Asriel
[If only I was a witch... muahaha... I mean... :|]
26. What has one of your friends done?:
"REDEMPTION" by GACKT
[O_o I hope...so...?]
27. Where is your newest teddy bear?:
"Metaphysical" by Moi dix Mois
[Having an existential crisis.]
28. Your boyfriend / girlfriend is?:
"Forbidden" by Moi dix Mois
[TRUTH D8!!!]
29. Your favorite food is?:
"Psycho Butterfly" by Kaya
[YUM.]
30. What do you hate the most?:
"The Count of Tuscany" by Dream Theater
[He didn't give me free food.]
31. What do you think of the quiz so far?:
"Metamorphose" by Asriel
[D:]
32. What do you spend the night doing?:
"Dive Into The Heart" by Kimeru
[YES.]
33. What do you get sick of doing?:
"Todokanai Omoi" by Juka
[Having people not understand. ;A; Truth.]
34. Where is your best friend now?:
"Storm" by GACKT
[OH NOES DDD8!!!!!]
35. Angels or devils?:
"Abomo Shiro Dracula" by Aikaryu
[Devils, I guess? O.o WHY DO I EVEN HAVE AIKARYU OH WAIT I REMEMBER.]
36. What do you say to anyone who enters your house?:
"I Fall Down" by U2
[WATCH ME WATCH ME!!!]
37. What are your favorite lessons at school?:
"BAROQUE" by Malice Mizer
[YES. 8D!!!]
38. What do you think of people in general?:
"Night Breed" by Moi dix Mois
[THEY ARE EVIL.]
39. When was the worst day of your life?:
"Bara ga Utsukushiku Ochiru" by Lareine
[When the roses died! ;A; ;A;]
40. What was the last thing you said to someone?:
"Unknown Caller" by U2
[Not too far from the truth, actually...]
41. Do you play an instrument?:
"Fuyu Tokyo" by Lareine
[ALL OF TOKYO IS MY INSTRUMENT.]
42. What do you want at the moment?:
"Last Hallucination" by Schwarz Stein
[O_o]
43. What do you want to do right now?:
"Happy Euology" by Sugar Trip
[WHY DO I STILL HAVE SUGAR TRIP ON MY COMPUTER]
44. What did you buy yesterday?:
"Hydrangea" by Kaya
[Pretty~!]
45. What do you think of me?:
"Ai Senshi" by GACKT
[You are a warrior of sadness...? Does that make sense? D:]
46. What do you think of your neighbors?:
"Forsaken" by Dream Theater
[8D?]
47. What do you think of heaven and hell?:
"mermaid" by XOVER
[WHUT.]
48. What is your biggest goal?:
"Time Machine" by alice nine.
[YES! YES! 8D!!!]
49. What do you enjoy experiencing?:
"ASCENDEAD MASTER" by Versailles
[VERSAILLES ARE THE ASCENDE(A)D MASTERS THAT WILL LEAD ME TO THE PROMISED LAND OF HAPPINESS YAY I ENJOY EXPERIENCING THEIR MUSIC WHICH WILL LEAD ME THERE TO BE WITH THEM YAY 8DDD!!!! /spazy but that worked out so very well.]
50. What will you re-post this as?:
"Everlasting Dream" by HIZAKI grace project
[:Db]
The answer to the question is the name of the current song.
Skip to the next song when on the next question.
1. What do you want to be when you grow up?:
"Illuminati" by Malice Mizer
[YESH 8D!]
2. What kind of dreams do you have?:
"Tenjou he no Kakehashi wo" by Matenrou Opera
[Dreams about the bridge to heaven, apparently. :Db]
3. What do you think of Christmas?:
"Exclude" by Moi dix Mois
[D8 Well I suppose as the oldest I am somewhat excluded...]
4. What are your current thoughts?:
"Birdcage -live-" by GACKT
[I'M CAGED D8.]
5. What would you say to the person you liked?:
"In A Little While" by U2
[XD!]
6. What do people think of you?:
"The Revenant Choir" by Versailles
[I came back from the dead and I sing a lot.]
7. What is you favorite possession?:
"Innocence" by alice nine.
[Interesting...]
8. What do you do in the evenings?:
"To Go Beyond, Pt. 2" by Enya
[I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING ILLEGAL I SWEAR 8Db.]
9. How do you say goodbye to your friends?:
"Blue Planet" by alice nine.
["Go! Return the planet to its beauty! Be green!.... erm, blue! 8D!"]
10. How do you say goodbye to the person you like?:
"Soaring Awakening" by Art Cube
[I woke up and realized I didn't like you anymore.]
11. What would you use to kill someone?:
"Hishuu no Hanazono "Ketsubetsu no Bara" ~L'adieu Avec Le Passe~" by Lareine
[KAMIJO'S HIDEOUSLY LONG TITLES AND LAREINENESS. I WOULD NOT FAIL.]
12. What would you like you boyfriend / girlfriend to be?:
"Shadows Temple" by Moi dix Mois
[A ruined cathedral, apparently. ... Actually, I can see myself doing that. O_o'']
13. What do you think of life?:
"Eternal Love" by Lareine
[..........LIES.]
14. What do you do for your friends on their birthday?:
"Whatya Want From Me" by Adam Lambert
[YOU EXPECTED A PRESENT? YOU EXPECT ME TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU? PAH!]
15. Who is your best friend?:
"Kimi Ja Nakya Dame Nanda!" by Kimeru
[It must be Kimeru, since apparently he can't live without me. O_o'')
16. What does it smell like?:
"SPEED OF RISE" by Lareine
[I DON'T KNOW BUT IT MUST BE COOL]
17. What do you often shout to people?:
"Silly God Disco" by the GazettE
[I am the Silly God, so whatever issues from my mouth is therefore the Disco.]
18. What is you current mood?:
"Returner ~Yami no Shuuen~" by GACKT
[Emo. ;A;]
19. What did you do last night?:
"Queen of Decadence" by Schwarz Stein
[I have nothing to say for this. ;D]
20. Which possession do you use most often?:
"Saint Croix" by Juka
[Indeed it is! -highfives Juka!-]
21. What did you do last time you got drunk?:
"apres midi ~Aru Paris no Gogo de~" by Malice Mizer
[I went to Paris for the afternoon.]
22. What is the meaning of a funeral?:
"Regret" by Malice Mizer
[Thinking of all the things you should have done and said while they were alive. :(]
23. What are you scared of?:
"UNEXPECTED" by HYDE
[OMG SO TRUE D8]
24. What hurts you the most?:
"Blue Romance" by Lareine
[If it was Red Romance, though, it would be completely different...]
25. What do you want to do when you see a school teacher?:
"Oz to Majo" by Asriel
[If only I was a witch... muahaha... I mean... :|]
26. What has one of your friends done?:
"REDEMPTION" by GACKT
[O_o I hope...so...?]
27. Where is your newest teddy bear?:
"Metaphysical" by Moi dix Mois
[Having an existential crisis.]
28. Your boyfriend / girlfriend is?:
"Forbidden" by Moi dix Mois
[TRUTH D8!!!]
29. Your favorite food is?:
"Psycho Butterfly" by Kaya
[YUM.]
30. What do you hate the most?:
"The Count of Tuscany" by Dream Theater
[He didn't give me free food.]
31. What do you think of the quiz so far?:
"Metamorphose" by Asriel
[D:]
32. What do you spend the night doing?:
"Dive Into The Heart" by Kimeru
[YES.]
33. What do you get sick of doing?:
"Todokanai Omoi" by Juka
[Having people not understand. ;A; Truth.]
34. Where is your best friend now?:
"Storm" by GACKT
[OH NOES DDD8!!!!!]
35. Angels or devils?:
"Abomo Shiro Dracula" by Aikaryu
[Devils, I guess? O.o WHY DO I EVEN HAVE AIKARYU OH WAIT I REMEMBER.]
36. What do you say to anyone who enters your house?:
"I Fall Down" by U2
[WATCH ME WATCH ME!!!]
37. What are your favorite lessons at school?:
"BAROQUE" by Malice Mizer
[YES. 8D!!!]
38. What do you think of people in general?:
"Night Breed" by Moi dix Mois
[THEY ARE EVIL.]
39. When was the worst day of your life?:
"Bara ga Utsukushiku Ochiru" by Lareine
[When the roses died! ;A; ;A;]
40. What was the last thing you said to someone?:
"Unknown Caller" by U2
[Not too far from the truth, actually...]
41. Do you play an instrument?:
"Fuyu Tokyo" by Lareine
[ALL OF TOKYO IS MY INSTRUMENT.]
42. What do you want at the moment?:
"Last Hallucination" by Schwarz Stein
[O_o]
43. What do you want to do right now?:
"Happy Euology" by Sugar Trip
[WHY DO I STILL HAVE SUGAR TRIP ON MY COMPUTER]
44. What did you buy yesterday?:
"Hydrangea" by Kaya
[Pretty~!]
45. What do you think of me?:
"Ai Senshi" by GACKT
[You are a warrior of sadness...? Does that make sense? D:]
46. What do you think of your neighbors?:
"Forsaken" by Dream Theater
[8D?]
47. What do you think of heaven and hell?:
"mermaid" by XOVER
[WHUT.]
48. What is your biggest goal?:
"Time Machine" by alice nine.
[YES! YES! 8D!!!]
49. What do you enjoy experiencing?:
"ASCENDEAD MASTER" by Versailles
[VERSAILLES ARE THE ASCENDE(A)D MASTERS THAT WILL LEAD ME TO THE PROMISED LAND OF HAPPINESS YAY I ENJOY EXPERIENCING THEIR MUSIC WHICH WILL LEAD ME THERE TO BE WITH THEM YAY 8DDD!!!! /spazy but that worked out so very well.]
50. What will you re-post this as?:
"Everlasting Dream" by HIZAKI grace project
[:Db]
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Finally! Keigo's back!
After almost a year of being broken, I finally got my first laptop, AtobeKeigo-Sama, back. FINALLY. I have missed this laptop soooo much! ;A;
Now... to just restore a whole bunch of programs and such. Whee. =_=
THIS CALLS FOR GACKT JAZZ HANDS! 8D!!!
Well... I guess those are jazz hands?
Anyway.
YAY.
Now... to just restore a whole bunch of programs and such. Whee. =_=
THIS CALLS FOR GACKT JAZZ HANDS! 8D!!!
Well... I guess those are jazz hands?
Anyway.
YAY.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
April Fool's Day
It sucks. Life decided it was going to pull a huge April Fool's on me and it's certainly having its laugh.
About the only thing really making me happy today is the fact that I got to listen to VII-Sense's new album, "Black Bird", and it's awesome. Whee, Shaura and Mikage~! :3
BATMAN!KAMIJO WILL MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER.
YEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!
About the only thing really making me happy today is the fact that I got to listen to VII-Sense's new album, "Black Bird", and it's awesome. Whee, Shaura and Mikage~! :3
BATMAN!KAMIJO WILL MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER.
YEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!
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