Vinushka.

I just watched the PV to Dir en grey's "Vinushka", and I'll say with confidence that I'm glad that they haven't released the uncensored version.

Since I don't own the Average Blasphemy filmography, I don't know the reason for the choice to keep it censored, but I don't need to know. I'm glad that it's still extremely restricted.

I've watched some of their other uncensored PVs, and they're disturbing, but they're fantastical, acted, CGI'd, so it hasn't bothered me much.

But I've seen everything that they included in Vinushka in its fullness. I've seen all the pictures and videos they cropped down. I've seen the paintings and drawings they included. I've walked in those places and heard what those people had to say. My mind fills in the rest of what I can't see, and I don't need anything else.

Unlike Obscure, or Kodou, it's all real. There's no acting and no pretending. Those are real things that happened to real people, and I can't stand to see it again.

I guess I'm just a wimp like that, but once through the Nagasaki and Hiroshima museums is enough for me to understand. Once seeing all those horrible things is more than enough. There's no deleting what was dealt to those people... there is no deleting the responsibility that we as Americans carry for it.

I guess it's all the more sore, considering that this past week was the 65th anniversary of the dropping of the bombs, and no American representative was present at all.

In my Japanese history class last year, when we got to this topic, what everyone else had to say was disheartening to me. I was the only person that had seen those places, heard those stories, seen the pictures and the videos and the remainders. Voicing my opinion, I was basically told I was brainwashed, and that those museums were made for the sole purpose of trying to make people feel sorry and guilty.

Well yes... if you saw the things that happened to those people, and you could see how it still affected them, how could you think that it was the morally right thing to do? It disgusts me that people think that we were in the right to do that.

I don't think any country has any right to do that, even in war. And I especially think we don't have the right to claim that no harm was really done because we're America, and to not take any responsibility for what we caused because it was war. I think we even pretend that it didn't really happen, just because we weren't affected by it.

Those things are real. Those people are real. Those stories are real. And we just don't even care.




If the uncensored version of Vinushka ever comes out, I won't be watching it, but I would think it enlightening to everyone that hasn't been to Nagasaki and Hiroshima to do so. Maybe they would change their minds if they could see the horrors wrought.






Then again, it's America, so probably not.

I LOVE TODAY.

YES I DO 8D

 

 

Okay well morning sucked because I think it was somewhere around 100*F+? And I had to drive to the airport and wait at the airport and drive back from the airport in a car with leather upholstery and no air conditioning. :Db But I survived~

 

I picked up my friend and we had a good chat in Japanese on the way, reaffirming that YES I SUCK AT SPEAKING IT LOL but I can still understand it very well.

 

I dropped Alyssa off at her apartment and ran to work for all of two hours (lol). BUT WHILE AT WORK, IT STARTED RAINING. AND THEN AND THEN AND THEN. THE KITCHENS BROUGHT ME A BOX FULL OF CAAAANNDDDYYYYYYYYYY 8D

 

And then after work I went back to Alyssa’s and she gave me presents. AND MORE THAN TODAY IN GENERAL, I LOVE ALYSSA. I LOVE ALYSSA MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE RIGHT NOW.

 

 

WHY, YOU ASK?

 

BECAUSE.

 

 

 

 

YEAH THAT’S RIGHT FOOCHAS.
SHE FOUND THIS RR MAGAZINE FOR ME.
AND BOUGHT IT FOR ME.
YES, THIS ONE:

 

 

THE ONE WITH YUKI. ALSDKGHLASKDJGKLJSDKLKLXCMVLAKSDHFLJL.
YES SOMEHOW SHE JUST WALKED INTO TOWER RECORDS AND FOUND IT.
WHEN SUPPOSEDLY IT WAS SOLD OUT LIKE WITHIN TWO DAYS OF ITS PRESS
BEING ANNOUNCED?
YEAH. SHE JUST WALKED IN AND FOUND IT. AND BOUGHT IT.
(ERIKA HAS BEEN SEARCHING FOR MONTHS AND HAS NOT FOUND IT.)

AND NOT JUST YUKI EITHER.

 

 

IT ALSO HAS EFFING SONO IN IT. SONO. TOORI. DESU. –SHOT!-

 

 

 

 

…… Ahem.

 

 

Oh, and that’s not all either. 8D

 

 

 

 

 

Matenrou Opera’s “ANOMIE”. She bought it for me. alsdkghalskdjgldskjfl.

 

 

And.

 

 

the GazettE’s “DIM”. She also bought this for me. lsakdhglksadglkdfjkl.

 

 

AND.

 

 

Number vol. 5. alskdhgldksjflksjdlf. 8DD

 

 

 

 

AND THEN.

 

 

 

 

MONOCHROME FACTOR VOL. 9 ASLDKGHLKXCZMVLKSDGFKJDSALKFLKHGLJSDLF.

 

 

 

 

 

 

ALMOST LITERALLY I AM EXPLODING WITH HAPPY.

I THINK I COULD GET HIT BY A TRUCK AND I WOULDN’T EVEN CARE CAUSE I’M SO HAPPY.

 

 

 

 

 

Alyssa, you’re the best. >3

 

 

 

 

 

 

Or at least (and funny how this happened as soon as I finished typing all of the above), it was that way until my mom came dancing in to ruin it.

 

I will drown myself in DIM and not pay any attention to her. Or try not to, anyway.