Wind Blowing Through Tomorrow

In the Middle of Chaos.

2012-02-11T16:56:00.001-07:00

I realise it’s been a long, long time since I last posted on this blog, and while I would like to post about my last few weeks in Japan, there simply isn’t a whole lot to say because it basically consisted of me getting everything ready to go. Nothing was really visited, except for the Meiji Jinja and Takeshita-Dōri (Takeshita, far too many times). I am now safely back in America and

Japan, Weeks 15-16

2011-12-05T15:37:00.001-07:00

Herp derp I’m late again who’s surprised?! Schoolwork has been murdering me the last couple of weeks. It has been so hard to come back from work and focus on it, and I’ve been so exhausted that more often than not I’ve shut my eyes for just a couple of minutes to rest and woken up to see it was three hours later. Last week there were two nights I slept not more than maybe two hours

Japan, Weeks 13-14

2011-11-19T19:59:00.001-07:00

Again I’m late… no excuse, really. It was another round of not-really-exciting weeks for the most part. I was in Choshi again for the 7th and the 8th to do test assessments. One of the classes was cancelled, so I’m actually heading back in a couple of hours so we can get that one class done tomorrow, and then my time in Choshi is done. Here’s me on a bus! Marvel at my British nose

the GazettE Tour ‘11 VENOMOUS CELL at Ōmiya Sonic City, Day 2

2011-11-09T18:16:00.002-07:00

Ruki promised different, and different we got. I went a bit earlier this time so I could get a couple of goods. ( *｀ω´) So you get to hear all about the excursion. I got: The Blackmoral wristband. Despite what it looks like, it’s all made of silicon so it’s actually super comfy~ The Blackmoral Boston bag. This thing is GIGANTIC. I can’t even tell you. I stuck my

the GazettE Tour ‘11 VENOMOUS CELL at Ōmiya Sonic City, Day 1

2011-11-08T15:41:00.001-07:00

I WENT. This one was a bit tricky because I was in Ibaraki in the morning for work. (￣∇￣) So I was up at six, worked from 8:40 until 11:30, took a bus back to Tokyo, arrived at 14:30, went to the office to get my NEW!!!! schedule, got back to Saitama at 16h which gave me just enough time to shower, change my clothes, and cram a sandwich into my mouth before I was out the door to get to

Japan, Week 12.

2011-11-05T22:56:00.001-06:00

A relatively calm and uneventful week. I went to Choshi a couple of times on one-day gigs to do test assessment. There’s actually really nothing in Choshi. The area around the hotel I stayed is basically just little gift shops and some (extortionately-priced) restaurants. The hotel room was small but comfy, and everyone at the hotel was very nice to me. The IC I work with in Choshi

Japan, Weeks 9-11

2011-10-28T19:26:00.001-06:00

Sorry I’ve been so long in updating… first things were not exciting and I just didn’t update out of laziness, and then things started happening really fast… and week 10 I was pretty much just completely out of order, haha. Basically nothing happened during week 9… it was just the normal get up, go to work, come home, do homework, go to sleep week. EXCEPT. Those of you that read my

My Life According to the GazettE.

2011-10-21T02:36:00.001-06:00

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 20 people you like and include me (presuming I'm someone you like). You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)" Are you a male or female: "Erika" Describe yourself: "Ruder" How do you

the GazettE Tour ‘11 VENOMOUS CELL at Olympus Hall Hachiōji

2011-10-15T16:01:00.001-06:00

IT WAS AMAZING. Ready for unnecessary details? I woke up at about 7 (lol no choice in that) and spent most of the morning taking my time and getting ready. I honestly didn’t feel like wearing anything I had but I ended up with this ensemble: Hooray for losing weight. My hair turned out really nicely too. I switched up the order I used hair products, which was a huge risk,

Tomorrow Never Dies.

2011-10-11T02:36:00.001-06:00

I was just looking back through my blog. A year ago, I wrote this entry. Here I am a year later. How do I feel about it now? I’m still unable to take care of myself entirely. I’ve come to be bitterly angry at the people that were and still are helping me. Why? Because they want to help the me they wish I was, not the me I am or that they think I am. Hypocrisy through the roof. That’s

Japan, Week 7-8.

2011-10-10T07:19:00.001-06:00

Hisashiburiiiii~ So not much happened in week 7 and then all sorts of things started happening so I didn’t really get up the time or energy to update until now, into week 9 lol. But oh well. The good news is that I’ve finally been certified as an assessor for the company’s elementary school assessment tests! This means I’ll finally get to travel out and see all around Japan. My

Japan, Week 6.

2011-09-25T05:29:00.001-06:00

There were two national holidays this week, meaning that I only had work for three days! x3 So exciting~ Monday, just for the fun of it, I hopped on the subway and rode to Todai, or Tokyo University, just to have a look around. One of the main gates. Two of the main gates. The Red Gate, the most famous one for the university. This was a

Japan, Week 5.

2011-09-18T05:22:00.001-06:00

The week where stuff crashed a bit. D: Taylor was suddenly called to go down south to Tokushima on Shikoku (a whole different island) and he’ll be there for about a month. I am missing the companionship a lot, but life goes on. I did a lot of work this week, so there aren’t many pictures for now… this is what I’ve got. It sounds so ominous…… I got the recording

Japan, Week 4

2011-09-10T17:31:00.001-06:00

Wheeeeeeee \(・ω・)/ So Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I was teaching a girls’ school summer camp. :3 I taught the “restaurant” lesson~ It was a really nice place up in the mountains in Nagano-ken. I guess the school owns the facility, so it’s only for the one school’s use. I wasn’t allowed to take pictures of the students, so don’t ask please. :/ Here was my room~

Japan, week 3.

2011-09-04T02:13:00.001-06:00

And here – we – go. Actually not much happened this week, mainly because of work. Taylor and I have been claimed by the planning department of the company… meaning that we get a lot of deskwork. xD We did a lot of translation and input for the department the five days we were there. At the same time, we’re being trained for test administration. This is a test unique to the

Japan, Week 2

2011-08-27T22:14:00.001-06:00

Woohoooooo week two! Shortly after I posted the last entry, Taylor and I decided to make the five-minute walk down the street to Tokyo Dome. There is really no telling you how gigantic and spectacular just the outside of the structure is. I can’t imagine what it’s like inside! Unfortunately we didn’t get to peek our heads

Japan, Week 1

2011-08-23T01:37:00.001-06:00

Sorry it’s been awhile guys, but stuff is happening and I have a bit of time to talk about it now. Warning: half the pictures are taken on my iPod, the other half on my camera, so some are nicer than others. xD;; So I arrived at the Salt Lake City airport at about 6:30 AM on August 14th, flew from Salt Lake to Los Angeles, and boarded a Korean Airlines plane to fly to Narita.

Five days.

2011-08-09T18:10:00.002-06:00

Five days until I leave for Japan. Five days until I leave everything behind and start all over again for a little while, completely on my own. It’s time for me to go. It’s time for me to leave, leave all this behind, all the pain and the irritation and the emotions and go somewhere and start to live for myself. In Japan, I don’t have to live for anyone but me. I don’t have to satisfy anyone

Vortex.

2011-06-13T18:26:00.002-06:00

Really, I can't do this.It's about time to cut myself off. The aching and the longing and the crying is too much. I can't even remember half the reason why I'm holding on so hard anymore.I have a hard time sleeping, I don't want to eat.So what really matters?It'll be good for me to be far away, not having to see things.Maybe it's cowardice. Maybe it's bravery.I'm just trying to survive."Right

Break me.

2011-05-15T23:46:00.001-06:00

Put the memories, the images, the sights, the smells, the feelings, the everything I don’t want in a box. Lock the box. Put it in a safe. Lock the safe. Leave the house, run as fast as I can down the street several blocks. Fly into the train station, down the stairs, into the train. Take the train far, far away, leaving all of it behind in a box where it can’t get out and follow me. This is

Music has a way of being very truthful.

2011-04-22T11:28:00.002-06:00

* Put your iTunes/Winamp/WMP on shuffle.* Use the song title as the answer to the question.* NO CHEATING1. How does the world see me?ASCENDEAD MASTER - Versailles2. Will I have a happy life?The Great Debate - Dream Theater[Fitting.]3. What do my friends really think of me?Distorted thought - HIZAKI grace project[Fitting.]4. Do people secretly lust after me?DISCHARGE - the GazettE[This is Ruki's

Broken.

2011-04-20T20:52:00.003-06:00

My will.I go through my day with only the most fleeting touches of emotion, and the rest is the hazy grey of clouds about to break.I'm trying to come to accept it.My throat.I don't have the voice to cry anymore. When I manage tears, they run silently.Silence loudly echoes in my ears.My heart.This is something I thought I had guarded against, but once again, I let the walls down.A broken vessel

Dangerous

2011-03-24T23:33:00.003-06:00

It kind of hurts that people don't seem to think that I really feel the way I do, and I only wish they could be me for just five minutes so they could understand just how much I hurt. I wish they would respect it and I wish that they didn't tell me what I can and can't feel. I wish that they would understand that because I feel that way I hurt and I bleed and that they wouldn't say I can't do

If I Could...

2011-03-20T16:50:00.002-06:00